Hey girl... Behind you all the way... Remember that i'm already sooo proud of you! Doesn't matter how you perform, just seeing you on an ordinary day has lit up my face! ;) Just do your best and most importantly be yourself!Cheering for you!
 

hehehe. i dont think i need to drop by with comments anymore already right?

i agree with peijet :P peejay just reminds me of amenda tan from mgs (can you remember her?)

we won't go there to laugh at you or to judge your talent etc. we're going there to support you not to make you feel nervous and make you all flustered.

even if you fell off the stage, we'd still think you did a fantastic job.

at least i know i would.

and you know linglong, all those past worries, are called past for a reason. you know, i am forever thankful i was in mgs and where 'looks' didnt even matter. none of you from gb/my gang ever scrutinized whatever/however i looked. maybe because we rarely saw each other out of uniform/mufti (oh don't you miss nice uniforms?) but even if we did, we just enjoyed each others company.

don't you remember the first time you came back in september. i almost had a heart attack, cox there you were, all dressed up completely with [dont know how many million rings and necklace plus earrings] hahaha.

i think after you came to melbourne you became a bit more 'girly' which is why you insisted i would as well. well, you won that bet, i did. but not because everyone was 'girl' - i could have easily turned bung right :P (nah i wouldnt have) but because i kinda knew when to dress up (my idea of dressing up) and when to dress my normal.

you've come a long way from 'finding' yourself since i first knew you. and honestly, when all those thoughts plagued your mind back then, you must have thought i was the most ignorant carefree immature person that existed on the planet. we all have our identity crisis i suppose. and i'm glad you've found yourself, as a precious child of God.

meiling, i can tell you don't really know what you want to do after VCEs. even if i'm wrong here, i think you are struggling with this whole idea of 'uni'
but frankly, just because you don't see your yearmates or classmates fretting away, doesn't make you 'strange' (lack of a better word)
perhaps, because they aren't constantly surrounded by uni people on weekends etc that they can just deal with the thought of university when the VCE ends and the results come out.

in singapore, i am sure, if the A's weren't so tough as well, everyone will be thinking of what they want to do in NUS or to go overseas.

when i read your blog, there are only 1 thing bogging you down. and that is chemistry/school work. God has blessed you very greatly with friends and family here. and i really doubt that any friendship problems is making you so 'faithless'

God has blessed you with one of the kindest hearts i know. one that would go out of its way just to make someone happy/help out. and whether or not you grumble because you've chosen to do it, you still do the task to the best of your capability.

your work/performance - just surrender it all to God. He'll take care of you and bring you through it. just give it all up to Him and let Him be in control. He already is, but maybe now it is time to acknowledge it, not only in your mind but also in your heart.

let Him just take away all the hurdles that you are facing. not physical ones. but the hurdles you actually place for yourself. tear down the fears, shoo the doubts away.

you'll be fine for your performance. and you'll do just fine for your VCEs.

now just put in your 110% and let God do the rest (:

love you babe.

sanney khoooo.
 

edit yeah:

your entry was a really long one, and that day when you told me "help" i was talking to my mother, and i thought something bad happened. then you continued to go "i dont even know how to describe it"

right motivation - firstly, you aren't doing this charity show for us.

you are doing it for the kids.

and we aren't attending it to make sure we get the most of our $?? (that amt we have to pay). we are attending it to support a good cause.

where is your goal? scary yes. channel this fear into the right motivation. channel the numbers of people attending into pure joy for reaching out and giving a child a last wish.

the devil is trying to twist this whole situation around. he is trying to tell you "all attention is on you, people will get angry at you because you "cha and cha" (pester) people to go etc.

truth is, it isn't supposed to be about you [yeah i'm blunt, sue me]
you aren't asking us to go so that wah, you school can come out in the newspaper for raising 10,000 to give 1 kid a wish etc.

you are doing it for THE KID.

so please, don't let the devil try to create fear and doubts in you. you should be pleased and excited with the numbers.

yasmine (my AYSGL in s'pore) shared this verse with me " Hebrews 11:1 - Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

Pastor Russell shared that verse during our 2nd DNA meeting.

i have begun to see that verse in such a different light after my first church camp and after that DNA session.

here are two other verses,

"for the eyes of the LORD range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him." -2Chr 16:9

"He will not let your foot slip-- he who watches over you will not slumber;
The LORD watches over you-- the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm-- He will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." -Psa 121:3,5-8

hope you are renewed and refreshed. ready to tackle the challenges that life might bring. with God as our shield, we can run this race, and finish strong.

loveess
 

hmmm... thanks to peijet and sanney... hmm.. yah... i agree wif wat u both haf commented on and im glad to say tt after dance practise today, i feel really great... coz i really gave my performence(s) to God... and i felt like He was there wif me the whole time, encouraging me, and helping me persevere... God has definately done a lot for me these past few weeks... and i can truly feel the diff... i will do my best to lift my all to Him... i want to and i know tt when i do and stop worrying abt it, He will take care of everything in HIs time... i love the Lord.. dun u all???
 

hey meiling... love u and miss u overhere in singapore... i know you're not doing fine and maybe you've gone off the beaten track. Just remember that when u forget how you look on the outside and focus on the words that come out of your mouth, you are a really beautiful person. A kind, sane, God-centered heart that is a great friend to all. i love you and God loves u too. miss you lotsz.
Sarah