*Sunday, May 29, 2005*
last night's chill out session was way too cool... abt more than 50 ppl came and well, we had a smashing time, piging out on chicken curry, bobo cha cha, veg, cheesecake, apple pie, pasta, and PeiJet's creation of spring onions, spinach and sour cream and onion... stuff in bread ( Sanney.. did u noe tt it had spring onions??)
had a talk wif Peijet during dinner, mentioning some of the stuff tt was bothering me, mentioning how much i desire to serve more in church, but needed breakthroughs in my life so tt i can do more for God and contribute more. i even told her tt i felt like i needed to be involved in a leadership thingo... haha..
it was good, playing a game of cherades, saboing ppl to get up there and embarass themselves.. haha.. warming up he atmosphere, b4 Ee Lin came up to share a few things to us.
amazingly, Ee Lin was sharing on a lot of stuff tt i was talking to Peijet abt.. with Jerimiah 29:11 and Psalms 139:13. we are all valuable and preiceless children of God, who sometimes rather live on how our friends around us label us. Yet we forget tt God had already known us when we were in "our mother's womb", before anyone knew we existed, and He had plans all worked up for us, even b4 our parents met. There wld be times when we felt tt our prayers "bounce off the ceiling" when we pray at night, that we felt God wasn't listening, but little did we realise that God was already carrying out His plans for us, even b4 the worries began, answering them in His own perfect timing.
after that, i had another talk, but wif Phoebe this time and again, i mentioned how i wanted the Holy Sprit to be in me, to be able to speak in tongues and to seriously place God priority 1 in my life. I needed to know what course He wld like me to do and one thing she mentioned tt i went.. tts wat i need to do was simply " don't ask God to choose a course for u, but ask Him to show you what u can do and what u enjoy doing, than leading you to choosing ur courses". how true is tt??!!!!!
After talking to Phoebe, was another talk wif Ee Lin, who said " you know what, the last time u asked me what discipleship wif Matt was abt? well, i want you to join us, but i think u need to settle some things before u start or u wont find servicing fulfilling". wowowowowoowowoww... tts seriously something i needed to hear. i never felt ushering tt fulfilling coz my heart wasnt right wif it.. and how i so long to do soo much more.
today, at lunch, while waiting to be served our jap food at QV wif Juni, i had a chat and she was like " i think u and Sarah-anne wld do really well in discipleship" and i was like "i had an impression tt i wanted to be able to lead an urban life grp in the future" and to be able to speak to ppl's hearts like Ee Lin has soo spoken to mine".
finally came to 10 conclusions after these conversations all so impt!!!!
1. I need the Holy Spirit in my life and want to be able to speak in tongues
2. My life needs to be changed and having the Holy Spirit in me wld definately lead to tt change
3. God has to be placed no. 1 in my life
4. i wanna let go of things hindering my walk wif GOd and have breakthroughs
5. i know that i can do loads more things for God and achieve a sense of fullfillment
6. i wanna be able to lead an urban life grp in the future and speak to the heart's of ppl abt their worries and challenges in life.
7. bring the lost to God... even speak to the hearts of those who were found but backslided.
8. i wanna let ppl i know to experience God in a whole new level
9. i wanna stir up hearts to haf a desire for serving God and doing His works
10. i wanna get to a new level of faith in God
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 7:56 am
