*Thursday, May 19, 2005*
seriously!!! leslie cheung killed himself coz of some love problems... some guy hu acted in dou yu killed himself coz of financial & love problems... now his "lover" wants to kill herself coz this guy's fds are after her and blame her for his death.... do ppl wif depression head tt way? guess where i found all this?? haha reading S'pore's veri own lianhe zaobao online!!!! ahhahhahah....
wats the world coming to... ppl one by one starting to kill themselves... ppl i know one by one come to tell me tt they've cut themselves.. u noe.. the harm sellf thingy or however u call it... sheesh... i feel like im surrounded by them all of a sudden... argh!!!!!!!
yupz... tt juz shows how stressful the world is coming to.. sigh sigh sigh... if ppl were to relax a little... do a little dance in their sch.. workplace.. on da streets... get some of tt unnecessary tention released..mayb attempts like this might decrese in no. by the thousands?? easy for me to say... considering i was on my way to kitchenland few yrs back... haha... glad i neva had tt courage and go right wif it... am i serious??? hmm.. tts for me to noe.. and for u to break ur head wif the guessing... lala... sly old moi right... haha
some peeps i noe hu im gonna offend right now will kill me... but im gonna say this... some cut themselves to feel good... release stress.. gain attention... which one's the best excuse... none actually.. the onli one... running away frm problems and hoping tt by wasting time drawing blood... mayb some problems might vanish at the sight of blood.... poor things...the earth wld b red if problems cld dissolve tt fast...
some might ask.. wats the best way then... to save ourselves the trouble of committing suicide... i really dunno... mayb looking at ur problems frm small to big.. like learning to climb the stairs on a staicase stair by stair rather than all in one step.... im learning tt too... its not easy... but when was life supposed to be easy... u gotta learn to grown and mature.. and tts through perseverence...
im saying this to myself as well... recently.. i've realised i gotta piles and piles of work... tt everytime i look at my all so perfect in time cousin... i feel guilty for not facing my workload... tt i kinda scare myself... seriously.. i noe God doesn want me to be at pace wif my cousin.. neither does He want me to catch up in like a day... but all tt matters is i do my best.. little at a time and try to complete watever i've fallen behind in.... common... the old me wld be plucking my eyes out... pulling my heart out and scolding every organ inside of me for not being organised and disciplined and consistant in my workload... but.. tts wasting more time aint it.. ??
as my cousin wld say.. "stop worrying".. yupz... get ur bum right at work... dun worry abt anything, instead, pray abt everything...tts prob my motto... get ur mind right at it.. instead of beating round the bush and avoiding it... haha... yupz... all comfort goes to experience frm urs truly ** grin grin**
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