*Friday, May 27, 2005*
haven had the time to blog occasionally... haha... hmm... studying a lot lately... realised tt a lot of things were scarier... and really brought to moi attention... like on tuesday morning.. weny to melb uni to here few ppl talk abt wat goes on after uni preferencing... results released.. uni preferrencing again.. and choice offers come... than ui eronlment... and wat shook us was tt we only had 1 offer, where as locals had 2 - 3 offers.. and its like.. if we dun get into a course 1st round.. we may never get into uni.. but need to do a Tafe course and than head on further....
got me thinking abt lots of things... like how i need to finalise wat i really wanna do.. and wats best for me.. i dun really wanna sit and counsel ppl all the time.. and i know i wanna find my interest and find my passions in life...
went out wif Shauna, Scott, Juni juz for dinner... talking abt life as a uni student.. and like.. the stuff Scott does... essays... and reading... its really scary.. like... is tt uni life... wow... harder than high sch... more panic attacks...
used to like reading.. and really hope to find my passion back in those books... i dun mind writing.. but i like to haf my own space and freedom to write and not haf a limit to wat i can write abt... i know myself and a lot of me is writing.. prob in a dairy... on this blog... i dun mind all this.. esp essays... but than again... depends on the book and the qns... sigh... haha
juz heard energy's new song.. its not bad... i dun this urge to go crazy over them... i can happily say tt im not really over cheena music... but im not crazy over these guys now... mayb coz kor doesnt allow me to listen anymore to cheena music.. soo tts y....
today is rest day.. haha.. tking over tomorrow's place.. but still need to do a bit of work... heng ah... tomorrow dun haf to b in sch early... cant wait for chill out session tomorrow... muz take photos.. haha... really wanna sleep now.. feel soo tired... haha...
maths today was terrible... i knew how to do the task.. like.. i prob finished it wifout really understanding how to do all frm scratch.. no wonder i cldnt really do the test... almost the same.. but change of nos. only.... such a give away test... feel like crap now coz i know i cld haf done better... S**************..... yupz... chem was not bad.. but than again.. the cheat sheet helped lots... soo.. i guess tts the problem...
nowadays... i know wat i really need in my life and im really aiming to find the Holy Spirit in me and let life change totally... im desperate for it... desperate to be a diff person.. im sick and tired of who i am, relying on my own, when i can leave so many things to Him... i feel so little... so un impt... so.... small... i wanna juz change and be a happier and more fulfilling person... sheesh... watever...
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 3:13 pm
