*Saturday, June 18, 2005*
today.. well.. tonight at least.. i learnt a lot of lessons.. had dinner wif Juni & Scott, and wellllll... they made me realise a lot about my studies.. from Scott, i learnt to enjoy and love what im doing, and not treat it as a chore.... its true.. tts all i've been doing these few years of studying.. and i used to always wonder.. why why why ppl working wld rather go back and study... and its true... our drive as students to study is to love what we are doing now and enjoy it, and its only thru tt, tt we are able to find fulfillment in what we do... from Juni, i learnt... why worry, when its all in His hands? and its true... i sometimes feel like i've taken far too big a step.. and i aim too high.. and its too much for me to balance...
in sch.. i learnt... to make samll achievements towards that goal... and well.. we had a psychologist speak.. and she was talking abt this lady whu did i dunno how many thousand km of skiing frm the antartica to the south pole or something like that and ppl asked her how it felt thinking that she wld reach the south pole.. and one thing she mentioned really struck me hard... " i didnt think abt the end... but i thought abt now... and what i cld achieve in a short period of time. i cldnt even see 1 meter ahead of me, but i look on towards landmarks and i felt a sense of achievement reaching those land marks... which finally led me to my destination"... my destination right now is to meet the mark required for me to get into what i wanna do... and right now.. my aim is to do my h/w, revise, practise more on what i need to do, and do the best i can...
i look so much ahead, that the future scares me totally... i dun wanna live wif the " i cannot get 90-95%" mentality.. but i wanna live wif the " as long as i put in my best effort, i will live wif no regrets on my results and i will definately be able to get what i need"....
thank You Lord... for showing me these few things in such a critical time in my life.... God doesnt only speak to us thru the bible, but thru other ppl... we dun even haf to only here Him like an audible voice... there are so many ways.. and so many lessons tt He can speak to u in.... Thank God for life and friends...
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