*Tuesday, June 21, 2005*
sat... a whole day at Leadership Training Day... 3 sessions.. all by Pastor Glen Berteau... all 3... so amazing.. so direct.. so enriching.. its amazing... its really took tt step of faith to come... to stay for all 3.. and u noe... i didnt regret a single bit of it... not one moment... before going in.. i was sooo into the decision of going home after the 1st session.. but after tt.. i was like.. no... im staying for the 2nd.. and after the 2nd.. i was like.. no way am i going home!!!! cant believe i gave sun to study... i guess its all tt step tt took me up the top... wat to say.. leadership day was good... great... awesome!!!!
came sun... we were forwarned before hand by Pastor Glen tt he wld give a call for those who wanted the Holy Spirit in them... i sooo wanted to see Sanne and Shauna get it.. and i soo wanted to see myself.. not filled with the Holy Spirit, but baptised in it.. yup... last night... i really had a confirmation.. tt i did have the Holy Spirit in me... and i sort of "imagined" myself at the foot of the Lord... and juz handing out tablets with my subjects listed on each.. and the Lord juz passing me one with "peace" written on it... and hung it round my neck... and i juz felt.. i dunno how to describe... but it was like... as soon as i saw the tablet hanging round my neck... my heart and stomac wasnt tightening... it was... light... and i was juz so at peace.. tt i almost broke out in tears...
last night is probably a turning point for lots of us... and i never... saw Sanne weep tt much... not tt i can remember.. but there was joy in her weeping... and i was like... Oh Man!!!!! God is really amazing... bringing us all to higher levels... neva haf i wanted the Holy Spirit badly... and neva haf i felt... so blessed n so happy... like... i cld juz snuggle in bed, under my covers, and whisper a good night to the Holy Spirit in me... tts how... how... i dunno... i felt...
if u noe me well enuff... im definately hyper.. n i can definately cry and laugh at the same time... i mean seriously.. and when i stress out.. i juz go crazy.. but last night.. i slept... and.. i mean... u mu b thinking.. sleep than sleep mah... describe until like tt... but.. u dunno man... the next day.. was like 3 sacs!!!!! i mean.. hello... i dun anyone will sleep well... if u had a lit essay to write, an english "persuasive" to complete and a chem practical... if it was me... i wld haf been tossing and turning like a ship in a storm abt my lit!!!/... haha.. guess what.... lit was cancelled... chem prac was like... juz stirring water and taking its temp.. and eng was... ok... not bad... i mean... how much better cld the day get??? now.. its survivng the most impt and "stressing" thurs... and im all good... well... yah.. as long as im putting in consistent effort and not try and run away from my studies... yupz... i def can do well... all thru the grace of God ... !!!!
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