*Tuesday, July 19, 2005*
no way am i gonna be mittle miss nicey nemore... mon.. such a bad day to start the week... if i started on tues.. mayb i wldnt haf ignored miss s and neither wld i haf to hear her and her unpleasentness abt me missing dinner wif miss p and how pointless it wld be to haf dinner cum celebration for miss p if we were to hold it another week later... well.. miss s... if u werent so selfish as to stay home the mon b4 sch... we cld haf gone out according to the birthday gurl's wish and DEFINATELY NOT YOURS.. look hus talking abt being selfish here? u think i dun haf plans and i haf to listen to u barge ur selfish way into my life, acting like u take control... well... u're definately not gonna take over my life... and im not gonna let u bring me down...
cant believe the stuff u haf said to me this whole yr... a big diff.. btw sch "friends" and church friends... btw friends hu bring u down.. and friends hu build up ur confidence.... cant believe u noe tt wat u say hurnts and still continue to say it and not change.... cant believe im a coward to satnd up for myself and juz give u the impression tt im timid... cant believe i cldnt be bothered and didnt want to defend myself... cant believe im going to scream my head off.... no more little nice gurl... not now anyway...
if today wasnt mon... i wldnt be wondering wat kor will say when he comes home to find his honey pork burnt.. till there's no sauce left... o welll... wat can i do?... hate mondays now... def need to find time to talk to God abt this... i hate mondays.... soz to those reading this... im def not in my best moods.... life suxs.. to the core now...
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 3:58 pm
