*Wednesday, July 13, 2005*
wat to say.... Inner Champ was awakening day tonight for me.. coz... 3 days in a row... God taught me different things abt a certain issue... and kept providing alternative pathways... for me... behaving exactly like what i wld call.. a catalyst... haha...
Pastor Sam Evans spoke in the 1st session - Faith to move moutains... and it was really an opening night!!!!!! during worship, Pastor Sam took over frm Mike Webber and started telling us to get rid of us worshipping in the flesh and start in the spirit by throwing things in our minds down and clearing our brains of all thinking... and i juz felt soo light.. sooo electrified.... and juz imagined myself on a field... with God seated right in front of me... and worshipped Him like i hardly ever did... and it was soo... like i felt like i was the only one with Him alone... in my huge field amongst the mountains.... it was way too cool.... like sound of music.... yupz... those mountains and fields....
Faith is past what we see, hear, feel... its deep within us, it becomes our gut feeling to tuning in to what the Spirit's saying. Faith is the carrier of a word to see it manifested into our lives. when someone else steps out in faith and proclaims something, tt person's faith could be the key to a breakthrough in another person's life. As soon as we begin to step out in obedience to God's word, we need to shut the doors of doubts out, else we'll get pulled down by them....
this really taught me something... few weeks ago... i was chatting wif sch friends abt my enter score and what we needed to get to get into watever course, n i rememer myself mentioning tt i wanted to get into commerce/arts which required prob a min of 95% and my friends were like... "seriously.. its hard for me... let alone you... we'll never be able to make it.." and i felt myself falling .... like... uh oh.. tts it... tts it... tts the end of uni entry for u ling.... but today... when Sam spoke... it was like God shaking me fully awake and saying that if i really BELIEVE and HAVE FAITH in not only Him but also myself, nothing's too hard... even if i wanted to score above 90%... it was not an impossible thing.
and i was totally shaken... its time... its time to let doubts talk to the hand and shut those wrong stuff out in my life... i'm def headed for a better future than wat the devil's providing... and i def need to get in touch wif the correct confident side of me....
Pastor Ben Fewster spoke in the next session - Planted in the house of God.. and it emphasised on the people we spent time wif and what we did during our spare time... and the importance of how little things like these show others what kind of Christian we are. we need to be products of our environment, and we def cannot let our unsaved friends be more of an influence to us than we areto them, or we won't be able to help them and even get ourselves pulled down.
When we let our will take control of our emotions and nothe other way round... its usually tt which makes the time an awesome one!!! i agree totally with tt coz one of my most amazing experiences came from feeling exactly tt way...
few yrs back... i remember one evening, my best friend est msging me, telling me to go for a Joshua 21 concert/conference.. watever u call it and i was like... erm.. no thanks... i mean.. i was tired and she was persistent.. and i was kinda pissed and was debating like crazy.. and i complained to my mom during dinner.. and i was super black face... but she finally smsed and said " i juz feel that God wants u to come along tonight" and i was like.. ok.. ok.. like if God told u.. i muz go right?? so i went.. unwillingly.. and it turned out to be one of the most touching nights... i cant remember details.. but only tt we were shown some video abt this guy loosing his dad.. i was like... erm... tts like me... and i cried bucketloads... mayb tts y i cant remember wat happened after tt... but anyways... tts not the only time... like sun was another gd fresh example where i had to do ushering for PeiJet and i didnt wna stay coz it was 3rd service and i was kinda gone liaoo.. but i did.. and it was a 180 degress thurn for me... soo.. in conclusion... when our emotion FOLLOW our will... tts the way to end the day... not the other way round... its time to stop our emotions from controlling us, but let our will take over...!!!!
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 4:05 pm
