*Saturday, July 02, 2005*
with a snap of our fingers, a week has past, since i started my hols, and spent everyday out. the beginning of the week has been mind blowing.. guess its due to the fact that God presses it in for me to learn to forgive and be forgiven.
i once wrote in my dairy, " how wld u reject a person, who needs help, but only comes to u when u are of use?"
in my last week of sch, sacs were screaming my name, so were studies. i had 4 sacs, which equalled to all my subjects taken for this year. stress week.. yet on tues, or was it wed, that i had an encounter wif her, that rubbed deep within me. Gurl M had an esl sac tt day. was it my fault that i was "on and offline" so she cldnt ask me for help the day before? i mean, seriously, there was such a thing as the phone. and not only that, she left me to correct her essay, which she had points in which she cldnt understand and words neither she nor i had seen in our entire life. rach came up to me, saw what beautiful work Gurl M had given, snatched the papers away, and marched right up to her, giving her a piece of her mind.
rach tells me that im taken advantage of, and i need to say "no" coz i haf my sacs to study for, besides the fact that Gurl M is rude, spoilt, selfish and so on...but seriously, wldnt u wanna help a gurl, hu needs help in her eng? common sense tells me that im using a wrong technique to help her, and that its true that im allowing myself to be used, but is there any other way?
a week later, inner champ changed my life. forgiveness was one of the things taught and it tore my heart. all i cld remember, God brought to surface, and when we were told to tear that piece of paper with the list of names and things done to us, it was like peace and relief came down upon each and everyone affected!!!! i should do this more often.
im sure that there will definately be silent readers, coz the internet's amazing these days and people ask why write some personal and in depth stuff when its all private matters to us.. but hey... we are all people, and amongst the billions of ppl hu surf the net, at least one wld fae the same issues as us.
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