*Monday, July 18, 2005*
its miraculous how things i used to do in the past.... dun give me the same sense of satisfaction when i do them now... everyday.... this question pops up in my head.. " how am i doing God's work" unconsciously... so much that i've juz realised how much my spirit is crying out to grasp hold of wat i'm not doing right.... "what wld God say... how would He feel" has been drilled into my mind.. that it becomes so much of my life...
fri night... was at PeiJet's place. and we were watching Pastor Prince at New Creation & Joyce Meyers at Hillsongs conference preach..
i've never heard either... but few things that Pastor Prince mentioned really stood out... and yelled practically at me.... when satan comes along wif thots in our minds... abt how God would feel when we do something wrong.. always think of the reverse.. as satan is the king of lies... and tt really woke me up.... the times i felt my confidence fall... the times i felt my mood plunging down a hill when i do something wrong... it was all part of satan's plan... to make me feel like i'm unloved.. unimportant.. and worthless... yet last night... i took out my cd... and started watching this behind the scenes of united life's look to you... and it juz calmed me down soo much... the way i observe those musicians & their passion for God and their music... and i asked myself.... "how r u gonna play like that?" n... its like... hey.. i wanna be someone like tt... some1 hu is able to impact the lives of others... someone hu stands out frm others coz of the things she persues and isnt afraid of nething coz she's doing it all for God... and.. i realise tt it was how passion is realised... when we go after God... and we see the things we can do for Him.. and we do it... tts how passion is found... created.. and tts how the talents multiply..
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