*Friday, July 08, 2005*
sanne once sms me... "God sent you here 1 yr earlier, to ENSURE tt u'll be in Melbourne"...
things that happened during the past week link so much to thots on my mind so far... in urban life last night, though i wanted to share something, i didnt coz i wasnt sure what it meant... PeiJet shared abt identities and being genuine and true to ourselves, being the original of wat God has made us and not the copy of what our friends perceive us to be... to follow God wif all our heart and not fall back on the plans He has for us, coz we dun wanna regret when the dvd of our life is shown and God tells us tt we cld haf been a better person, but we gave in to fear instead of faith
fear: believing in something u cant see, will happen
faith: believing in something u cant see, will happen
one leads to confidence to carry on, the other leads to destruction... which path do we choose?
when i was asked last night wat i wanted to do, i sort of thought abt that for a little while and fear juz ran thru my blood. what do i plan to do? that question has probably broken its record for the most used question in my entire life juz the past semester. i dunno wat i plan to do, but i do know that i wanna follow the plan that God has written out so clearly and beautifully for me. i wanna study a course in uni that God will be pleased with and one that i will enjoy and not regret. i wanna study arts in uni... but am i choosing that coz i know ppl there, who have already done that or are going to do that.. or do i do it coz its probably the on degree i see myself in, or is it a course that God has let me set my eyes on? yr 12 vce students are so limited by the fact that our enter scores represent the rest of our lives that we live on wat we get, to enter into a certain course in uni.. its not only vce students, but ib, foundation, sats, a levels, psle, o levels, so on and so forth.... our lives are limited by the results we get in sch.. but isnt there more to life than juz studying and aiming for results?
sanne's thinking abt the reson she's in melb and the full use of how she can make it a memorable time. wat abt us? wat abt me? 2 yrs ago, when i stepped into melb for my 1st yr of studying.. i qned myself.
a little gurl, barely 16 and thinking abt her life's goal, wondering the importance of her existance, wondering the reason she left home, to pursue a foreign education system. one thoght that rang loud and clear in her head one day, while praying in her comfortable room, wif the curtains closed, and tears streaming down her face, was "you are here to change the people around you".
Pastor Henry Seely once mentioned an image, of Holly, his 3-4yr old, really cute daughter, sitting at the back of his car, with a Christian cd on and lifting her hands, closing her eyes, worshipping God. God reminded me time and time again that he wants us all to run after Him wif child-like faith, ever curious, and eager to learn something new. yet how many a time haf we brushed off tt quiet tapping of God and focus on the louder, harder to ignore sounds of the world ard us? haf we wondered y God's tapping is light, and the world's is hard and impossible to ignore?
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 6:00 am
