*Sunday, August 28, 2005*
how easy is it.. to juz speak out, and not do anything, to set goals, but yet neva take the initiative to reach out to get it done...
everyday, i sit in sch, and wonder what it wld be like if i was a hardworking girl, who did my homework b4 i sat down in front of my comp to relax... soon.. will haf to fill in preferences, and the fear of not getting into a course overcomes me...
arts, media n comm, teaching... these are the paths i've got down to and hope to pursue... wld like very much to haf a job where i can fulfill my interest of sitting down and watching ppl act, for reading scripts and correcting them to fulfill the naivity of girls out there.... arts.. is that what i really wanna do? teaching?? media n comm?? Tv and production? psychology? counselling? business? HR? organising? is there a job tt fits all? tt is made juz for me?
it all comes down to what is right for me.. what is suitable for me... i always wondered.. if i spent abt 30 mins to 1 hr wif God everyday, juz speaking out to Him, telling Him how i feel abt everyday life, wld tt deepen my relationship wif Him? am i really running after God?
because i always look at the final product before starting wif the materials, i stress too much when challenges come my way... writing my blog had allowed me to see clearly my fears, and my weaknesses....
i dun wan to be compared wif my family.. i wanna do something tt i will be proud of, and no matter how "unclassy" or even "unprofessional" in sounds compared to a lawyer, an accountant, or even a doctor, i wanna be it coz its what drives me...
will You be proud of me even if im not as good as them? even if i dun score as high, or even go as far? will You love me still? if it wasnt to please You, i wld haf given up long ago... very very long ago...
2.15pm... 2.30pm... 2.40pm... when am i gonna start? haiya... starting now... im ready!!!!
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