*Monday, September 12, 2005*
2 weeks in a row, all the times during worship, i felt the passion and the need to bring Jamie, Rachel, Vanessa and Kor to church. All this while, Rachel’s name pops up 1st and I really felt I needed to get her in. most of the time, this is accompanied by thoughts that coz she’s so stubborn and coz of her family and friends, she wont accept Christ, or even think abt coming to church.
Pastr Paul Gerling is super good… like.. wow.. Totally blown away by his sermons… stayed mostly for the 1st service on his sermon of prayer and praise and how God uses ordinary people to do the extraordinary stuff because they are in His supernatural presence. How wonderful is God, to put such passions in my heart that I can look back one day and see how far I’ve gone because I’ve walked down my path with God. Today, it was what God’s promise was for us and whether we are facing up to it. 2 weeks in a row and today when Pastr Paul asked us to recall what was said abt us or what God’s promise was on our life, I was brought back to a church camp in Pri 5 or 6 or in my early sec sch years, where a guest speaker, Pastr Tim something, a youth or children’s pastr spoke over me and said that I wld be called to care for the needy and orphans and other stuff, but those stood out so much that even today, when Pastr Rob was talking abt his children’s ministry and what he saw, and not wanting to see 1 child counselor, but 10, I felt something in me ring, like God was telling me no matter how hard a course is, no matter how tough and impossible it seems to be for me, I’ll haf to do it in the end coz its what He’s planned for me…
Talked to stella abt her experience in 1st yr uni and coz she was doing arts/science.. which melb uni gave her by accident coz she only applied for arts after deciding not ti pursue music, she chose forensic science and got so freaked out by the dead bodies that she almost gave up. Not able to sleep at night and with the light off, it was prob seeing relatives pass away that scared her, yet she found her passion in forensic science and it really shook me…
Something she said really stood out… reminded me of exactly what esther said few years back, that God may at times bring us to do stuff we’ve never thought we wld do, or even be able to do it.. and coz He knows our deepest passions even before they are brought to light in us, we’ll go all the way for it…
Life hasn’t been easy for me, emotionally and even academically, yet I felt that because I managed to get through my tough times, I know that there will be tougher times ahead and as long as God’s plan is carried out, I’ll be alright….
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 4:05 pm
