*Tuesday, September 06, 2005*
feeling exactly like my heading as above... studies right now a challenge for me.. as usual, as always. How does one get above 90% for his/her VCE results? how does a person wif a LIMITED VOCAB do lit in Australia and MAJORLY misunderstood it in Spore? wanna do well, have tried hard to focus, wanna enjoy my studies and see a diff light towards it. need to plan properly.. tts when laptop "breaks down" and prevents me frm going online... good in a way God always puts a stop to my distractions when He sees the need to. last yr.. notebk stolen 2 weeks b4 exams... this time... its not functioning properly 1 week b4 sep hols...
discipleship has always set me on fire along wif a lot of "is this possible" thoughts... always full of passion, always full of big dreams that we manage to fulfill wif God's help and provision. during church yesterday, juz felt so hard in me that God did an explosion in my heart, for me to see my cousin saved... not to say tt i've never felt like she needed to stop being a 45 min Christian, but i've never felt tt much a passion and desire to see her walk down tt isle and be into the ministry in church. yet God brought me to so much that could stop my way and hers... and He showed how i could start getting into tt stuborn heart of hers, and i suddenly felt like i had to promise God that with all i am, i wld fast, and pray and sacrifice anything, to be able to bring her to Christ by the end of the yr, or even early next yr...
im sick and tired of feeling scared and below her... its time for me to show that im different and studies are def not my everything. a miracle that im so into ministry right now, and i def never saw myself go this far and get so into it before... NEVER EVER...
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 8:12 am
