*Wednesday, October 12, 2005*
wat to say, this weekend has been mind blowing... sat... had to fight wif time to study and bringing xinyuan to church all the way from Clayton... ended up staying home and "studying"... i did get 1 chap of chem done in 2.5 hrs wif Rach over the phone so tts great.. amazing frm my usual concentration span of 1 hr per day.. hhaa.. but i did notes b4 tt so tt was like almost 5 hrs or more on chem.. whew... no wonder i was so tired out!!!
sun: went f0r the lit lecture at melb uni and well.. started off inspired to do better in "the shark net", worried abt the exam after the "exam lecture" and then.. felt like i shld juz give lit up after "the sonnets"... i mean, all frm my class hu went for sonnets felt like we knew something but came out wondering whether we were ok to do the darn book in the 1st place!!! i mean.. what has sch been teaching us?
went to church and wanted to go study at state but went back to the auditorium and listened to songs outside.. what's amazing was i went in for worship and within less than 30 secs, Pstr Sam went on stage and asked us to let the Holy Spirit in tget rid of our worries for the exams!!. i was like.. ok God.. speak to me.. and i juz cried... felt so... relieved tt i went out after worship smiling my head off!!!
then.. during 2nd service.. again during wroship, Pstr Russell came up this time and said tt some ppl were crying in their rooms at night and God says tt its gonna be ok.. and i almost fainted!!! because when he mentioned crying.. i was like "its not me coz i didnt cry" but like immediately, he said.. "not crying phisically out, but crying on the inside" and it was like "ME ME pick ME" kinda feeling... and i really felt God reminding me again and again tt it was time to give my stress for the exam up to Him TOTALLY.. not try to but must do...
tt night, my best friend from Spore called me and she called not expecting any advice frm me, but little did she know tt i had juz experienced watever she was facing at tt moment and was able to bring God's advice into her situation.. amazing how God reminded both of us tt though we were distances apart, we were really juz a phonecall away... and tt tests really juz become testimonies, coz circumstances are brought into our lives for God to see our response towards our circumstances and depend entirely on God...
God juz so made me realise tt i was called on earth for a purpose and tt i or anyone cld juz be the person any1 else was praying for... and wow... i mean.. now i feel so much better, and i dun feel freaked out, juz worried abt time and studying, but im really really happy tt God knows how i feel.. and wants to help me out here... so.. thur's lit exam prac is really going up to Him... and Chem prac exam... well. depends... im gonna focus more on lit then chem though... hhaha... tough luck on wed ming... haha... gotta cram lit and chem for the next day... aiyaya... both subjects tt try to kill me the most.. as if maths hadnt done enuff....
ooooo.. and a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONO ONG!!!!!
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