*Wednesday, October 19, 2005*
how do u move on in life when someone so close.. a family member has said so hurtful stuff?
during a time when i was most excited, something was said and now its eating right into me...sanne once mentioned that if i dun forgive, the devil will use it and do stuff.. right now.. i can say.. i've just opened tt door to him... how fast did tt hurt sink it, how much did tt break a heart.. its only now tt i realised the true meaning of a heart broken into a million pieces... never haf i cried so much for so long, neva haf i heard the devil's plans so clearly in my head... its like he's eating me up and i know what he wants...
felt so close to doing what was not right, felt so close to giving God up and runing my life, but juz at tt moment, i hear God fighting His rightful way into my head and holding me back...
i know i haf to pray, i know i haf to forgive. i know i haf to get help, i know i haf to speak against, yet despite all this knowledge, i feel helpless..
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 4:10 am
