*Friday, November 25, 2005*
this week... has been a revealing week for me... in the sense tt im talking to many ppl abt the courses im interested in... and i realised that a lot of things on the surface can be resolved when dug deep into it.... courses may not haf been tt bad... unis may not haf such a great reputation... so on and so forth... yet it all comes down to... why worry so much when there's nothing i can do but pray?
chatting wif pstr Matt yesterday made me realise a lot.. and confirmed a lot of things.. abt why i was here... and even in eelin's ul... it made me realise tt all of us planted here in city church were not called all the way from the comfort zone of our country juz to study.. but to be a blessing, and to be rooted in God... so tt if we were to return to our previous environment, we cld be, as what Matt mentioned, a spark which sets of the fire within the ppl surrounding us...
what i believe in now.... my situation seems big to me coz its in my face... yet small to others who haf faced it and are already in the next phase of their lives... the similarity, is that we all hang on tightly to God, coz He closes the doors which are not part of our calling... and He finds a way to let us detour... if we were so blind as to walk into tt already closed door.... no matter what mistakes we make, no matter the falls we have... God will always be there to pick us up... and turn us ard, shld we stayaway frm the path tt He has created for us...
i juz wanna walk in His presence, look at course outlines wif a relaxed and eager to know heart.. and leave the rest up to Him.... lets go one step at a time... and for now... my stepis to wait for my results... and take tt few days to change my preference...
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 7:05 am
