*Saturday, December 10, 2005*
results out on mon.... dunno wat to do.. haven even started to pray abt it... but i can see one thing coming... its taking over my everything...
cant sleep, im comparing myself a lot, last evening to lots of ppl ard me... and i realised that God still gives me air to breathe, God still loves me as much as He loves anyone beside me... comparison is all satan's use, to pull me down, yet God strongly reminds that He treats us all fairly, and that we shldnt compare, as it wld mean tt we doubt His creation...
wat am i doing? what am i trying to figure out? how much can i hold on to Him? all of a sudden, im reminded that He is forever faithful, He wil close the doors to what He doesnt want me to, but juz last night, or early yesterday morning, i found my passion, the passion tt i see driving me all the way, the compassion that never dies, but one tt i refuse to let myself face, the sensitivity, the care, the love, the desires.... maybe when the time to choose and change preferences come about, will be the time where i find the course that i truly am made for...
tts all i can hold onto... tts all i can ever trust...
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 2:16 am
