*Monday, December 12, 2005*
ppl say tt its not the results tt kills, but the asticipation makes us suffer...
im experiencing the suffering right now.... i dun wanna think of what score i need, dun wanna think abt anything, yet i dunno wat to think to prepare myself for what's gonna happen...
mayb i shld list down the scores i need for courses im interested in...
he's not helping at all... not at all... im worried.. and cant i be? im in serious mode... and he's asking me to stop acting so glum... like hello.... its me whos getting the results not u... and u went though it as welll!!!!!!! insensitive guys!!!!!!!!!
im fed up, grumpy, sulky, wanna stay off the web, wanna go to sleep, wanna move out asap so i dun haf to c him again for another yr.. sigh...
on a much happier tone, church was fantastic, sanne got out of her "jail"... went dinner wif us, Pstr Ben Fewstor made me feel at peace in church... and well.. it helps... to calm nerves now.... thank God for prayer, when Mike Webber was leading and some stuff he said really hit me... and it was like.. wowo.... me me... both their words hit me... not hard but i knew tt it stirred a little in me and i had to listen... so.. yah... not bad... im well fed...
6.15am to wake... 6.30 to go on... an welll... hopefully load my page b4 the crowd comes in... haha... siao liao lah....
ling long picked a waterdrop @ 12:17 am
