*Saturday, June 11, 2005*
dunno wat to start of with.. but yesterday.. has really been THE BEST post exam period of my entire 16 and a half years of my life.... had breakfast again... with Scott, Juni, Shauna and AGAIN Paragon Cafe... and then.. went shopping for tt braclet i had my eyes on for the past week... went to "chill out" at Scott's place wif Juni,, chatted... had a massage.... BY JUN PPL!!!!.. BOOK ONE NOW B4 SHE LEAVES FOR GEELONG IN JULY!!!!!!! CHANCE NOT TO BE MISSED..... haha... oops... i was suppoed to do tt subtlely.... but.. oh well.. went home... went out after an hour for lunch wif Phebe... so honoured... to b the 1st person to celebrate wif her.. had new food... instead of bk chor mee... hey peeps... try new food leh!!! and went home to cook... but got a red rose for Phebe b4 tt.. argh!! thanks hon... cant help if im romantic.. haha
ok its Urban Life again... as usual.. that juz.... blows me away....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
got there... had dinner... fellowshiped here and there.. and Matt spoke... and wow.... worship b4 that was amazing... like.. seriously.... neva seen tt side of my "bro" and really ah... it gave me a new impression of him.. so.. might as well enjoy one of the rarest compliments i ever say and type out loud.... Scott!!!! U R SO COOLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!! i mean.. hello lah... he was playing guitar at the start..for Hero than... it went to You Are and i head the keyboard.. and i expected to see Pei Jet... but no!!! i saw Scott playing and i almost lost my balance... haha.. wonder y.. but yah... he really looked different... i mean... i kew he played.. but neva imagined it.. and it was cool... proud to haf u as an "older bro" haha.....
okok... prayer was good.. no.. fantastic.. no.... UNDESCRIBABLE!!!!!! we prayed for like an hr plus plus plus k... broken up into grps... me and Shauna got a lot of support.... frm Ee Lin and PeiJet and Juni esp.... for us to speak in tongues.. and thanks to Sanney dear... for making me mass produce a bucket full of salt water..... thanks hon i love u!!!!!
guess wat.. !!!!! we did!!! argh!!! soo happy.... we def can speak in tongues... and well... heres a few thots abt tt really battle-like hour with myself process.....
cant really remember right now... but.. remember wondering whether i wanted it... didnt feel like at tt time.. felt no drive to take it.... but.. i knew tt i wld regret.. so was praying and praying.. asking God to forgive me.. and to take my burdens away.. to help me let go of situations in my life... and well. yah... ppl started telling me it was in me and i needed to so called acknowledge it.. and i juz remembered few occasions during worship in church where i juz felt like speaking it but i let it pass me by soooo many times... and i knew i had it in me so.. prayed for courage in speaking out... and yah.... i did and 2 syllaubus came out.. got fustrated.. move to PeiJet's room... got even more angey.. but i remember PeiJet saying not to strive for it.. but take it as it comes.. and well yah.. i left it there and focussed on Shauna... who wasgetting wetted.. for one moment... i was kneeling down on the floor... and water came down... i thought the ceiling had collasped and it was raining in the room!!!! hahha... or else it was miracle water flowing down like a shower... but it was water poured over Shauna... haha...
felt really discouraged when Matt came to pray for her.. coz i was juz questioning myself.. like... was tt me.. or God... was i speaking out of the Holy Spirit or out of my own will kinda thing... and i knew that i wld really like the next day... juz go bac into my little un confident hole and cry to myself.. but hey.. i had the ability to rebuke tt thought and it was really a relief over me... juz repeating tt 2 words over and over again... and well.. a lot of wat i felt Shauna g though... struggling wif the ability to speak out really got into me... like... stuff like ' not frantically seaching but peacefully finding'... 'believing by faith and not by brains'... 'pleasing ur desires and God and not others hu can only b there to encourage us'... stuff like tt came to mind and i really didnt wanna tell her... but i remember... really hearing this ' wat harm can it do? wat loss wld i get' and i was like.. yup... tts true.... never ever let go of tt chance... tt opportunity to grasps hold of tt blessing... coz u'll def regret ad i cld sooo see myself regretting badly if i gave in to my cant b botheredness!!!!
tts all i can say for now.. brain shutting down... but update is there... cant believe i didnt update for a week!!!! soz ppl.... love u
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