sometimes the unexpected turns out to be what He sees your heart to be made of

*Tuesday, February 28, 2006*

is uni like this? well... im tired....

no offence to crim lovers.. but i juz had the worst lecture... of the 1st 2 days of uni... crim was boring.. dry.. and out to kill... mayb it wasnt tt bad... but im def a gonner at crim....

so now... tt leaves 1 other option... sigh.. something else again... back to choices, back to reading readers and finding something....

a lot of things came as a shock.. frm the callings... to the working.. to i dunno... juz a lot of things... mayb im glad the shock has come... to prepare me.. but when will it go away... for tt little while? i understand the times away... but i dunno... i'll still like to come back.. visit.. once a while... when im fresh again...

like a flower tts blooming... sometimes there feels a time when it stops blooming... and when all the rain and wind come against it... sometimes it juz wans to hide away... to grow smaller... and shorter... so tt harm will pass it by.... yet to bloom fully, it has to grow.. higher.. and blossom... into the beautiful rose it was created to be...

think i need a nap... at least 1 lecture was good today.... mayb im not majorless afterall...

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 6:43 pm

*Sunday, February 26, 2006*

a lot of things... tt were once blur.. now i understand... y God allowed this to happen...

these past few weeks.. haven been smooth... def not easy at all.. but now.. i know why i feel this way... another desire realised... another promise revealed.... now i know... tt God allows a promise to seem dead... b4 He resuracts it.. how cool is tt.. how obvious can tt be for me to be blind towards tt fact....

its true.. how i've always called for help from others.. but God.. the free call away is always placed 2nd.... now i understand sometimes why im thrown into the sea.. and left to learn how to swim on my own.... sometimes... God may be below me, helping me float.. but i dun feel Him and always struggle to drown.... sigh.... God is amazing... His ways... are too deep to comprehend...yet its not always hard.. juz tt our panics turn us blind to the simplicity...

uni now... finally... 10 hrs to go... ahhaa.... hmm.. dunn whether its gd or bad... but hey.. im ready for another chap of my life... coz i noe tt His promises to me will come to pass.. more revealed this yr... and those revealed will come to pass... some this yr... some in the near future....

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 11:44 pm

*Thursday, February 23, 2006*

tired... wasted... wanna take a break....

uni hasnt started... but i feel like i need space, time to myself... time to think abt wat i wanna do....

yes, there was this ***** at crim hu totally looked down on me coz i had no decision abt a major.. and a whole lot of stuff on my mind....

some1 was wishing tt a car wld knock her down becoz it was decisions, decisions, decisions..... y did i wish the same while crossing the road?

yes.. there was this period when i wanted to quit... quit and juz focus.... mayb i will.... mayb i juz need a break.. to disappear...

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 6:40 pm

*Sunday, February 19, 2006*

thanks God for sia... else.. i wld haf missed my fav yu shen... hahha.. laued it alone.. our individual lo hei..