*Friday, March 24, 2006*

juz now.. felt so far away... so far from You, yet i know, You're juz a word away, next to me, patiently waiting for me to make the first move....
i've missed You, and wanna tell You tt im superbly thankful for You by my side...

"she's" far away.... far from You, but Lord, i pray... tt You'll take her back, tt You'll bring her to Your santury and keep her there, not letting her wander again from You...

i've realised, tt often, when we wander away from God, we'll come back if it's HIs will.. this is God... the patient one, the one who chooses, the one who neva disappoints...

He's a God tt none can compare, none can grief... He's the one tt we can depend on, coz where ever we go, He's there... right beside us... to 'you'... pls dont wander, pls come back...

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 8:46 pm


cant believe it.. went ovr to jk n steph's hse.. mainly was to help jk wif her lab report which she casually started at 3pm!!!! waa... i took 3 days... she took 9 hrs and even much less.... feel sooooooo not smart lo....

anyway.. yesh... sooo... we went, had ice cream at macs, snacked more at her place, and finally ate curry chick... chai po neng, and veg... yummy lo.. cant believe the standard o those 2.... yan n i felt like our cooking skills needed brushing up a lot... all i cant say is tt their place at Franklin Loft is supper nice lo!!!

anyway.. yan yan... we're gonna bring u ard melb n eat gelati.. nasi lemak and all the gd stuff tt's ard melb.... haha.. u betta enjoy it... aiyah!!!!!!

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 12:40 am

*Saturday, March 18, 2006*

tired of readings, tired of research.. tired of the 1 week they gave us to write our 1st lab report... no offence.. but when an article is 11 pgs long... i usually dun read it...

how am i supposed to know which article is related to my experiment... to me... none do...

not gonna stay up like last yr juz writting and reading.. i refuse to do tt... it was painful then... but the amt of time reseaching... was like 20 hrs.. seriously using up all the free time i had during the weekends... now... i dun even haf another weekend... argh!!!!! this sucks.... God pls help!!!!!!!

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 12:22 pm

*Tuesday, March 14, 2006*

"arise" was said in ul on wed...
last night at discipleship, we were asked to take "initiative" and to "rise up"

when i entered my front door, u were on my mind.. n God spoke clearly, to go... tt was my initiative n i went...

never appreciated a time like this... a time tt i've always wanted, to catch up, to clear misunderstandings.... i know y the devil is working like tt... n at this pt in time... the only 1 i'll hate is the devil...

because we are shaking the planet, u n u n i... he has come b/w us, b/w our circle of friends... but i noe, tt one day, we'll come back to where we were... we'll come back to where we stopped and will carry on moving forward...

im still in amazment... at why things turned out this way... y problems spread this way... but i know.. tt though i see a lot of things differently right now, my heart for each n every one of u will still be the same... i will still b tt crazy gurl u c in church, the one hu goes up for hugs and cheek kisses, the one hu juz wants to laugh, the one hu juz wans to smile...

i'm left wif 1 more.... u noe hu u r... remember the korean food we ate last nov? i wanna go back there... if u ever do c this... i juz wanna say... its my turn now to pay... true i've let distance come in our way... but juz as Pstr Matt said... to end off each entry on a positive note... i will fix our problem.. n i will ask for ur forgiveness.. n i'll love u, as much as i've loved and will continue to even more...

to any one else hu sees this... i duno wat to say... but its gonna b our loss if they fade away... ppl come n go in our life... some move on to other uls, some return home, some into other ministries... but the bottom line is.. we started frm the same ministry.. and if we cant encourage 1 another... no one else can... coz we're in God'd own family....

i remember a time.. in discipleship, when each of us stood in tt circle, and prayed for unity... tt was y i stepped up... to be united as 1 ministry... at this moment, the hole hasnt been mended... but becoz of tt circle we made, i want our friendships back... all of us...

i love u all... like i've neva loved anyone b4... n i pray tt i'll neva stop... this is when i realise... i really really really really love each n everyone of u....

its time to rise up isnt it? then its time to start our breakthroughs in... n kick the devil out... be it in our daily lives, or be it in church, in uni, in our family... he's an idiot n we ought to show him hu's boss ard here... come on guys... we can def do it... not with juz our individual strength... but wif the unity n encouragement we shared, to achieve tt same goal, the attitude tt we carried throughout us for events like trivia and mamak nite...

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 2:16 am

*Sunday, March 12, 2006*

so distant... so far... so sad...

dunno where we are in this friendship... but i wanna say.. sorry...

to 2 ppl... a guy... n a gurl... so fast, so soon.... we allow some stuff to get in our way... i dunno wat i've done.. to one.. to the other... i dunno wat i did was right...

im not the only one hu has distances... but i juz wanna say... i hate what the devil's doing right now in our circle of frens... but if u allow urself to get affected... u'll eventually affect every1 else...

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 11:18 pm

*Wednesday, March 08, 2006*

after all i've done, i noe YOU wan me back...
afer all i've said, You've called me back...
after all i've challenged, You've finally given me the most obvious satifactory answer...

if it wasnt for tt message, if it wasnt for tt alter call, i may never come back, into Your presence...

my dream, my passion, what has driven me so far? i close the door to my past, i open the door to You, the doorway tt holds no door. i challenged You to give me an answer, and You called me out, and called me back, into Your ministry, into Your presence. i will arise, i will walk tt path You've planned for me. i've been thru hard times.. but that's when You were carrying me.

thank You.

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 11:52 pm

*Tuesday, March 07, 2006*

choot choot choot goes the printer.... as psych lecture notes come out 1 by 1....wasting paper... but wat can i do?

yupz... tts right.. im printing my own noes coz melb uni too *kiam* to print notes for us, and tt some lecturers are seriously too lousy!!!! too boring.. make me wanna go sleep... well done wif ur training melb uni!!!

today is def one of my happiest days at uni.. the best ever... crim tute... tutor was nice... class was ok la.. not too bad... made a few fds... saw HER.. caught sight of HER in crim lecture last week... neva got to find out HER name.. but recognised HER immediately... did she remember me? she's in my tute!!! hurray for that!! thank God tt i gotta c her... too scred to say hi.. told tess though... how encouraging... introduced ourselves... she said she's frm spore.. my heart skipped a beat.. i'm 100% sure its her.. even the name was right... it was familiar anyway...

later at the end of lunch... heard evelyn call my name... 2 guys and a gurl wif her.. tts right.. saw HER again.... evelyn told them she told them she knew me.. and i said def right... i looked at HER and asked... u frm rgp right? and and her face brightened up!!! haha... yea!!! she recognised me last week frm crim lecture too... hahha... but neva came up to say hi... jessica!!! hahha... anyway... yes... my pri 3 classmate... woohooo... 3c rocks(if i remember hu was in my class)... made new fds... got to know some better... xiao xi, yan, jes still hilarious... restless... even tess cldnt take it... hhaha.. tts right.. laughing all the way throughout lecture... my gosh.. cld anyone drone tt slowly... yan def counted the no. of secs she took to say each word.. or was it sentence? my gosh... took forever... tts right... even liz left after 1 hr... she was going mad... hahha... amazing tt we caught up.. me, susu, tess, yan.... for a drink, for chat, surrounding the tree.. but it was worth it...
gotta make a pack wif God coz its stirring in my heart... must bring 'her no. 2' back to Him....

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 8:13 pm

*Saturday, March 04, 2006*

yumz yumz... went for korean food.. but not before wandering ard bourke and elizabeth a few times b4 finding the recommended place by tuck wee.. haha...

it was good... both beef dishes... yummy... she enjoyed it.. and it was HER 1st time eating korean food... i still taste kimchi in my mouth and savour over the amazing beef dish... haha...

tired... for being awaken TWICE BY INCONSIDERATE CS RESIDENTS AT THE POOL!!!! swimming at 12 midnight is one thing... something i dun ever wanna do... but doing it at 5am!!!!! TTS WAS THE MAX!!! FROM NOW ON.. IM GONNA KEEP CALLING SECUITY TILL THEY GET OUT... wa lau... pls choose better timing la.... 5am!! hu is up n still in the mood for a 45 min swim!!! ******* all my bad words are gonna come out ah!!!! ARGH!!!!

ling long picked a waterdrop @ 5:20 pm